One of the many symptoms of CFS is the ability to have a nights sleep and to wake completely unrefreshed!

For two nights on the trot, I went to sleep at my normal time, which is usually around one or two in the morning (I’m a night owl).  Each morning I woke at around seven with the knowledge that I wouldn’t get back to sleep.  I also felt like I hadn’t slept at all.

Yesterday was the day after the second night, and was therefore a “lost day”.  I have them quite often.

A lost day is a day where I am fit for nothing.  I was desperately sleepy all day, yet couldn’t have a nap because of Restless Legs – Yes, I’m a wreck!!  Every time I relaxed to the point where I felt I could doze, the legs started kicking and became extremely painful.  The only cure for that was to walk around for a bit, which isn’t a good way to sleep.

I had a great night last night.  I went to sleep at two, and didn’t wake until midday – ten hours!  Yet even now I feel a bit sleepy. 

Of course, apart from the physical tiredness, there is the accompanying mental fatigue.  This is the bit I find very hard to live with, as I enjoy my writing and meditating.  I tend to be a thinker and dreamer, and when the though process shuts down I am at a bit of a loss.

I meant to write a piece for this yesterday, but the thoughts I did have made no coherent sense.  It was like trying to write in porridge.

Even today, it ain’t so easy!!!