To sleep
One of the many symptoms of CFS is the ability to have a nights sleep and to wake completely unrefreshed!
For two nights on the trot, I went to sleep at my normal time, which is usually around one or two in the morning (I’m a night owl). Each morning I woke at around seven with the knowledge that I wouldn’t get back to sleep. I also felt like I hadn’t slept at all.
Yesterday was the day after the second night, and was therefore a “lost day”. I have them quite often.
A lost day is a day where I am fit for nothing. I was desperately sleepy all day, yet couldn’t have a nap because of Restless Legs – Yes, I’m a wreck!! Every time I relaxed to the point where I felt I could doze, the legs started kicking and became extremely painful. The only cure for that was to walk around for a bit, which isn’t a good way to sleep.
I had a great night last night. I went to sleep at two, and didn’t wake until midday – ten hours! Yet even now I feel a bit sleepy.
Of course, apart from the physical tiredness, there is the accompanying mental fatigue. This is the bit I find very hard to live with, as I enjoy my writing and meditating. I tend to be a thinker and dreamer, and when the though process shuts down I am at a bit of a loss.
I meant to write a piece for this yesterday, but the thoughts I did have made no coherent sense. It was like trying to write in porridge.
Even today, it ain’t so easy!!!
Filed under: CFS on January 18th, 2010
Sounds like what I live with every day. I tend to be a night owl also. Been that way all my life. Could have something to due with the fact that my circadian rhythm wasburned out back when I was a kid (had long term rheumatic fever), who knows?
Speaking of sleeping, it’s time for bed.
Since I wrote this, every day has been a lost day!! Life is a bitch, but I ain’t complaining.
Time for a nap……….